I ran the 39th Annual Portland Marathon on Sunday October 10th and it was an experience I will never forget. Karen M. has already posted a really detailed course report, so I’m just going to give my personal story rather than a strict mile-by-mile description.Sorry it's so long! Also, the auto-dating on my camera is incorrect, it's all from 10/10/10.
This was my first marathon, and I ran it in honor of my mom, Jo, who died of cancer in 2007. She had also run a marathon when she was just a little older than me, in 1980, and this was my way of feeling connected to her and her experience. I loved her so much, and she was so into health and fitness, that I have always felt badly that she never saw me after I lost weight—she never saw that I became slim, healthy, and a RUNNER. That’s always made me sad, guys. I started running in July, 2009, and completing this marathon was the epitome of my training. Here's me with my racing bib:
I was hoping for crisp, clear October weather, but this year it decided to rain cats and dogs for almost the entire race. Sadly, my shoes were literally soaked before we even got started. It was dreadful, but I pre-lubed with tons of Vaseline before putting on my shoes. I had had to park about a mile and a half away due to traffic and donned my windbreaker over my little backpack that contained a camera, my phone, and a change of clothes for after the race. I walked, then jogged to the start to warm up a bit. Here's a pic of my bag and fuel belt:
Despite the rain, everyone had a smile on their face. The atmosphere was one of bonhomie and general good will, though the lines were very long to check my bag and then to use the port-a-pottie. I was very lucky to get done RIGHT as the gun went off—my nerves had been getting the best of me and I had to GO! One big fear I had was having to stop a bunch of times to go along the course, but miraculously I managed to make it to the end of the race without a single stop. I consider THAT to be Divine intervention!
It did take several minutes to cross the start line once the gun went off and the corrals slowly emptied, but I was glad for the slow start because it gave me a chance to warm up again after the long wait in line. The amazing Taiko drummers that were stationed close to the start gave us all an enormous BOOST of energy—it was incredible to see the coordinated, costumed Japanese musicians beating those huge drums in unison, doing their best to inspire us!
I had studied the race course obsessively, so imagine my surprise to find that it had been altered on Race Day! It threw me off a bit, mentally, to have to readjust the course map in my head. I am such a ridiculous control freak that it really bothered me, but I decided to shake it off and act like a woman and not a whiner! As we slowly climbed uphill on Barbur, I gratefully grasped (what I thought was) a water cup and proceeded to snort about 3 ounces of Gatorade up my nose. GAH!! Clearing my airways of the resultant slime and debris undoubtedly provided some entertainment to bystanders.
Naito Parkway was a long straight shot, with lots of crowd support so it was very pleasant despite the unvarying scenery. Just prior to the turnaround point, at around mile 8, my right foot became suddenly, horribly painful--never felt anything like it. I stopped, hobbled to the side of the road to avoid being trampled and tightened my shoelaces, which helped a bit. I focused on finding the most even bit of ground to run on and put pressure as I ran on the lateral aspect of the arch, which was the least painful part. I still don't know how I kept going--it was like someone jabbing a knife into my foot, yet I felt compelled to continue. I know it was stupid—I could seriously have injured myself, but I felt pulled along by the race and was ready to pit myself against this further obstacle—pain—for whatever reason.
Having birthed 4 babies without the aid of pain killers, I used every single one of my labor-coping skills to get me through the next 18.2 miles. I found a focal point, I breathed, I used visualization, meditation and mantras. I felt like I actually transcended myself for a while there on the course—it was beyond anything I can really describe, almost like fulfilling a vision quest. But it was still very, very stupid to run with this kind of pain and I will never, never, never do that again.
I managed to stay with the 4:00 pacing group for the majority of the race, but after the essentially flat bits were behind us I knew the tough part was yet to come:
Mile 18 was the first Hill of Doom, then about 1.5 miles later, after crossing the St. John’s Bridge, a second Hill of Doom. Joy. The pain continued to be dully present and worsened suddenly at mile 20. Up till that point, I'd never walked through a water station, but I sure did then! It got a little better as I went, but it was difficult to get back into the mental space that allowed me to run and run even with pain earlier on. Here's the St. John's Bridge:
Then as we struggled up the Interstate hill at mile 23, the runner in front of me began to pass out—and took a nose dive, nearly HITTING me going down! Yikes! I had slowed down quite a bit but my foot was steadily getting worse. The 4:00 pace group had left me far behind, but I was giving it my all and couldn’t mourn the loss of my goal. I just wanted to finish.
I crossed the Broadway Bridge on numbed legs and wounded feet but the coup de grace was yet to come--me and about 15 or 20 other runners were stopped by a TRAIN at around mile 24. I am NOT kidding you. A freaking AMTRAK train rolled right in front of us, barring the way. OHMYGOD it was hard to get going again after that pause! My legs were Jell-O, and my mind was nothing but one single desire—to STOP AND REST. I saw some of the walkers ambling along (I didn’t realize they were the HALF marathon walkers rather than the FULL) and became determined again to keep going. Beaten by walkers?!? NEVER!!
At mile 25, the crowd surged and I knew the end was near. How I wish my mom could’ve been there to see me, and the rest of my family. But I didn’t want to force my boys to hang around for more than 4 hours in the rain, so there was no one out there shouting for me. Still, I took out my earphones because I wanted to hear the crowd roaring. My heart soared to be so near the finish, but my body had one last trick to throw my way: calf cramp! My right calf cramped up like a mo-fo and I actually had to stop and massage it. (I forgot to drink the stupid pickle juice before the race, dammit! Sorry, Tracy!)
I was so close but that rotten cramp stayed with me for the final 1.2 miles. The look on my face must have told the whole story because I suddenly saw all those spectators lining the street with special clarity. Old, young, kids and grown-ups--I heard them screaming and yelling and telling me that I could DO it and that I was SO CLOSE! Don’t give up! I spotted the finish line at last and began to hyperventilate. (THAT was weird). I saw the gun time and I literally SOBBED UNCONTROLLABLY when I crossed the finish line and for several minutes thereafter. I felt like I had been through an obstacle course worse than anything I'd ever known, and come out the other side with pride and a respect for everything I’d worked so hard for. My heart was so full that it burst with joy and even now, a day later, as I write this I can’t help but get tears in my eyes at the memory. I love you, Mom. I love you, Portland.
Here we are, the walking wounded in our space blankets after the race:
**I had X-rays done and they were negative, and the podiatrist says it's a ligament sprain. My recovery strategy is rest, ice twice a day, anti-inflammatories, cross-training, and elevating my foot as much as possible.
My finish time, including the infamous TRAIN INCIDENT, was 04:07:30. Considering my injury, I am very happy with that time. I won’t be so stupid in the future, and won’t run hurt ever again.**
Races
Foot Traffic Flat Half Marathon (7/4/2010)--02:03:59
39th Annual Portland Marathon (10/10/2010)--04:07:30
Wishlist:
Portland Shamrock Run 15K (3/13/2011)--
Eugene Marathon (5/1/2011)--
Foot Traffic Flat Marathon (7/4/2011)--
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